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I’ve been looking up shit on MPD and headmates and uh

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Wikipedia

The diagnosis requires that at least two personalities (one may be the host) routinely take control of the individual’s behavior with an associated memory loss that goes beyond normal forgetfulness; in addition, symptoms…

Hey man, I know I don’t really know you but… Don’t ever self-diagnose. Seriously. It’s insanely dangerous. Especially for psychological disorders like DID/MPD, which can’t be tested and don’t have a clear answer. See, because once you get it into your head that you have a mental disorder, every little niche of your life that fits somewhat, coincidental or not, you use as confirmation for your own ailment. And then as you study up on the disorder and become more knowledgeable, you sub-consciously create the scenarios. In essence, you create your own disorder. (Or if you do have it, you make it more severe.)

DID may or may not be real, and you may or may not have it, but thinking about it and thinking about situations in your life where it fits, is the worst possible thing you can do for yourself. It. Can. Ruin. You.

I hope that doesn’t make me sound nosy or pretentious. I’m really just looking out for a fellow Red fan. Message me if you’d like to know any of this info more in-depth. I’m fairly well studied on mental disorders, including DID, and I’m at a point that I will never be judgmental about it. It’s not even within me.

Dude, I know that. |D I apologize for being annoyed but assuming I don’t know my shit about mental disorders is a little annoying to me. I don’t self-diagnose. Everyone’s response to this has been really presumptuous and it’s like HEY CHILL it’s one fucking thought I’m not posting that I’m about to go swallowing knives or some shit.  I do wonder if some of the symptoms add up, sure, but not diagnose, because what the fuck do I know. 

…Well, I know a lot, having been in and out of the crazy house and recently to the doctor to be treated for psychosis, but either way I don’t fucking self-diagnose. 

Regardless of if the disorder’s there or not, the split, dissociation, memory lapse, complete lack of awareness of myself/who I am, and reoccurring, repeated instances where I am not myself, either figuratively or literally, are occurring, and if there’s a name for that and it involves having more than one type of person be me, cool. Either way, it fucking sucks. I’d love for this to be true, honestly. Way before I even looked into this, friends and professionals pointed it out. I even had one of my best friends tell me, “Keegan, dude, you weren’t YOU.” 

The reason my former SO decided to split was because she doesn’t trust me, and she doesn’t trust me because of a night I seriously have no recollection of where I apparently threatened her, said I was going to kill myself, said I wasn’t safe/made implications about something like that?, outright attacked her and my other friends verbally and who knows what the fuck else, which is EXACTLY what happens when I’m Stupid Poopoo McButtface instead of “That Pyro faggot”. This has been going on a loooong time and I’ve been referring to these episodes as a separate person from me for a long time without actually thinking they are, so IDK. Whether it is or is not, it’s still balls salad with balls dressing. >:C 

Maybe its like those Snickers commercials that are all like “You’re not you when you’re hungry” and I just need to bite into a candy bar flkgjklfdgkfd;whoknowsok>:I

No it’s cool. I don’t know you. I don’t know your background. I follow fuckyeahred, but I don’t follow this blog and was only led here from searching for BW2 news. So I don’t know. But I do know from first hand experience that the things you’re describing really happen, and that they’re terrifying. I believe you. I just wanted to send out a warning, because I saw some serious red flags in that message. I have no idea what you know, what your life experiences are, or how you handle yourself, but I would have felt remorse the rest of the night if I had just passed on by a post like that.

pyroluminescence:

I’ve been looking up shit on MPD and headmates and uh

wow

Wikipedia

The diagnosis requires that at least two personalities (one may be the host) routinely take control of the individual’s behavior with an associated memory loss that goes beyond normal forgetfulness; in addition, symptoms…

Hey man, I know I don’t really know you but… Don’t ever self-diagnose. Seriously. It’s insanely dangerous. Especially for psychological disorders like DID/MPD, which can’t be tested and don’t have a clear answer. See, because once you get it into your head that you have a mental disorder, every little niche of your life that fits somewhat, coincidental or not, you use as confirmation for your own ailment. And then as you study up on the disorder and become more knowledgeable, you sub-consciously create the scenarios. In essence, you create your own disorder. (Or if you do have it, you make it more severe.)

DID may or may not be real, and you may or may not have it, but thinking about it and thinking about situations in your life where it fits, is the worst possible thing you can do for yourself. It. Can. Ruin. You.

I hope that doesn’t make me sound nosy or pretentious. I’m really just looking out for a fellow Red fan. Message me if you’d like to know any of this info more in-depth. I’m fairly well studied on mental disorders, including DID, and I’m at a point that I will never be judgmental about it. It’s not even within me.